Ashley Cain’s grief-stricken girlfriend Safiyya has revealed she feels "numb" as she sang at the grave of their baby daughter Azaylia, who tragically lost her life in April.
Baby Azaylia died at 8-months old following the diagnosis of an aggressive form of leukaemia.
Safiyya spoke to her Instagram followers at the grave of her daughter, telling them she felt “numb” and her "heart aches" and demonstrated the songs she sings for Azaylia.
Of those songs was a Jungle Book one, with Safiyya singing: “Doobie do, I want to be like you-oo-oo.”
She continued: “What else do we sing to you Azaylia? If you're happy and you know it clap your hands. She's so precious. I love her so, so much. My heart aches all the time when I leave from here.”
Brave Safiyya also opened up about her feelings surrounding her grief, saying: “Here I am another day existing. That's what I kind of call it at the moment. I feel like I'm just existing in the world.”
“I don't really feel like I've got much purpose at the moment. I've just got presence here in Earth. But I've got myself to the gym, popped into town, and I've just come down to my little baby. Can't find peace in my day and can't relax until I'm here with her.
Safiyya went on: “Even if I'm just sitting here. Just… don't really know at the moment. Don't know why I did a story, haven't got a lot to say. Feeling very, very numb. I miss my little girl.”
However, she discussed how she will remember her little girl, and the work they’re doing for charity in her name.
She said: “I feel like when Azaylia's charity is ready and up and running, I feel like my purpose will come back. Being able to help all those children and all those families suffering the same way we did.”
“It will be so amazing to try and help and create so much awareness – a lot more than we've already done. Keeping Azaylia's name alive and keeping the charity going is just going to be such an incredible thing to help. I actually can't wait to help and give back. The love and support we've had on this journey has been amazing. To be able to give that back, is going to feel incredible."
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She added: “I'm so, so proud of Azaylia for all of this that she's created. She's brought so many people together, she's spread so much awareness, and she's done it so gracefully and beautifully. She's so precious.”
Safiyya and Ex on the Beach star partner Ashley Cain managed to raise £1.6 million through donations to pay for Azaylia’s treatment, and they intend to use the remaining money to help others through charity work.
Most of the money raised by the couple was donated within 24 hours, thanks to generous well wishers.
Ashley and Safiyya used the phrase “let’s go champ” to encourage Azaylia throughout her battle with cancer.
Ashley wrote a heart-breaking social media post to confirm his beloved daughter’s death in April.
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